Good evening My loves I hope this post finds you in good spirits and with a smile on your face. If you don’t have one already the I guarantee that by the time you scroll through to the end of this post You’ll be smiling.
I’ve had such a good and productive day. I celebrated a milestone as a writer this week, am approaching a milestone anniversary as an entertainer too. I feel liek My life is finally trying to get back on path.
The last few days i have been spending a lot of time going through My old pics as I transfer them from disks to hard drives. Hard to believe I have almost 200,000 pictures of Myself but I do. Soon I will be able to actually organize them to pick out ones for t shirts calendars and other merchandise. Retirement is doing Me well.
Now that My smile is back intact I am back to booking photo shoots and I can’t wait to get back in front of the camera. Now that I can treat My modeling more like a hobby I am looking forward to expressing Myself creatively. It’s summer and I am feeling frisky and free. I want to get My ass up tot he beach soon and run around naked.
Fun in the shadows can be just what the doctor ordered at times.
It’s been almost two weeks since I gained a part of My life back that had been taken from Me quite some time ago, My smile. It’s been 3 years since I chipped My front tooth and that coupled with other dental problems had My self esteem fucked. The 4 month process I’ve been going through has had My mind and pockets fucked. But I’m all smiles now.
I’ve almost finished paying off My dentist and now only owe him $700. I was really depressed for a while when I was facing that $6,000 bill and not one of My fans cared enough to help. I got over it, I realized that no matter what I was doing this for Me and the less help I got the better I’d feel anyway. I don’t feel so responsible for being “on” for people because I owe no one anything.
I find it so hard to believe that I am less than 2 weeks from My 10 year anniversary of starting My career as Sexy Sapphire. I still can’t believe something I initially began as a joke turned out to be so long lasting and profitable. I guess that joke is on Me. It’s been a long fun and turmoil filled 10 years, more fun than anything though. I can’t even began to explain how Sapphire changed My life.
10 years ago I was a girl playing around on Myspace. I evolved to a webcam girl, then became a model. From modeling I went into amateur adult video work and events. My career grew, I became a published writer. I’m a book and magazine cover model. I’ve retired from adult video work, after a hiatus from modeling I’m ready to return with a whole new style. I now write for multiple platforms and have completed My first two books.Ii even run a talent promotion company. To think this all started as a joke, I created Sapphire to prove to people I had NO marketable value. Guess I was wrong.
I no longer seek validation and am 100% happy with who I am. That makes life so much easier for Me as I chase My dreams. For so long I was running around trying to live out the dreams others had for Me. I can’t wait to return to modeling with My new look, I’m not putting wigs back on, I love my locs. I want to do more natural stuff, some artistic nudes, more editorial style photos.
I also realized that though I can’t go back to explicit adult work I miss a certain part of it. I miss doing the foot fetish work, I myself have a huge foot fetish and miss the attention My feet used to get. I can see myself returning to that work soon.
I’ve proven My longevity and versatility. It’s been 10 years, I feel comfortable doing whatever I feel like right now. And I can, I’ve learned that no one can stop Me.
I hope you all are having an amazing day and before I go I want you to check out this free video below.