Birthdays haven’t always been a big deal to Me because I grew up in a family where I was so ignored and abused. I can honestly say I didn’t have My first birthday party until I was Sapphire. It was the first time that I felt someone cared enough about Me to celebrate Me. Still birthday parties are hard on Me because these days we have the parties in a club atmosphere, not in a small setting with our friends and family. Now we party with a bunch of strangers, so even still now that I have these club parties I can be there and still feel alone and like it’s not really a party for Me.
Last year with My decision that I would change My life on My birthday I planned a weekend full of events last year though My birthday was on a weekday. I was so busy and active that by the time My actual birthday came around and I found Myself alone as usual at least I could say I had done things I enjoyed and meant something to Me and not just relied of feeling valuable through partying with strangers. This year I have planned and done even more that gives Me a feeling of celebration inside.
I spent the first few days of August home with My son and enjoying some time away from work and the computer. When he left I started My partying. Friday I had a friend come up from DC and bring smoke and wine and we drank and smoked and laughed all night. In fact I offered him the couch so we could go out in the morning. We hit the museum and then he took me to lunch before heading back to DC. The next day he came back and got Me and took Me to an African Festival where I tried Samosas for the first time (OMG so good) and then we drank another 2 bottles of wine before going to the first of My birthday celebrations, an all white party at Oxygen.
I partied so hard and had so much fun. The girls were so friendly, so many wanted to dance with Me and they were smacking My booty and all type of shit. I had so much fun. Before I could even get home there were 3 videos of Me on instagram dancing already through other people pages lol. My weekend was so full and active and busy that I wanted to cry Monday morning when I had to get up and run errands for My son. In fact, it’s Wednesday and I’ve been in bed since I came home Monday. I’m so sore from all the running around.
I’m doing My best to recover before Saturday because I’m doing it again this Saturday night. I already made an appointment to get My hair done Friday afternoon I’m so ready.
Tuesday is My actual birthday and I’m going to dinner at a new place with My best friend. I’m really enjoying My birthday this year and it hasn’t even come yet. I’m starting My new year single, happy and seeking inner peace.
I’ve gotten quite a few great gifts off My wishlist already and I appreciate each one. If you want to send Me a gift from My wish list you can check it out at www.tinyurl.com/sapphiresbirthdaylist or you can mail birthday cards and gifts to M. Hill p.o. box 4485 Baltimore, MD 21223
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