You know I’m trying hard to redirect My daily behavior to being naughty only occasionally but I tell you, I miss the old Me sometimes.  I’m a bad  girl wrapped in the  body of a  hooker trying to  go straight. I  can tell you honestly though, the minute I can find a stable man to fuck on the regular, I’m  getting  crazy again.  The truth is the only reason I’m  so chill these  days is because I’m single and  not fucking any one  guy on the regular. I have 3 I rotate, but I still crave a daddy.

Not having a Daddy  puts Me in the awkward position  of  trying to  be comfortable with men I know are insignificant to Me. It’s no secret I  treat men like toys and ATM’s, it takes a very different type to be  seen  differently in My  world. As much as I bully, and torture men I seek someone  strong enough to handle My lil wild ass.

I need a special alpha male with  great  dick, amazing oral skills, extreme confidence, full of fun, life and  a gentleman to the tee and  furthermore he  has to be able to  ADD MORE TO MY LIFE THAN HIS DICK. The guy I  call Daddy will  be able to meet all  of My basic needs  so I  don’t have to look outside of  him  for anything. The only time I’m stepping  out for extra fun is WITH him because he keeps Me happy AND stable. I miss  having that.

What I miss  most about having that  special Daddy in My  life is  not just the stability but the  guidance and  feeling  of security. I  was able to feel  free when I had a Daddy. I always felt I had someone  who  would look out for Me, whether I  was  stripping naked in the woods, at a swingers  event or one of My porn conventions. I had someone whose opinion  I valued as much as My own, someone I  trusted to lead and guide Me to higher  levels. I NEED someone to  push Me to  higher levels of eroticism. In every  situation I  end up in I’m the more experienced, the wildest, the one with all the ideas. It’s boring.

 

I’ve  been on a  website lately where  a lot of couples post  pictures of either themselves or the wives, sometimes seeking a third or  more  fun. I  am  so envious, how I wish I had My own Daddy to play with.  A Daddy to offer Me up, to watch Me suck off other men  for his pleasure. It’s no secret all I really like to watch is gangbang porn, for the last two years one of My lovers has teased about setting up one for Me.  I can’t with him, I don’t  even trust him like that  even though I’m very  open sexually to  him. I’d need  a real Daddy, someone who has loved and nurtured and protected Me, so I know he will even in that situation.

 

My sex life  now  leaves Me  unfulfilled. I  get fucked but not regularly, the  guys I’m fucking I can’t say I really like or respect much as people  but I’ve been fucking them for years now  so it’s kind of like routine. I need  excitement, romance, adventure. I want someone who suddenly  pulls the  car over and fucks Me  crazy, or makes Me  suck him off in random places. I want a guy who I can be 100% free with.

I can’t wait until I find him though, I just know I will some day. I  haven’t given up yet. I just know there is a strong Black man out here  who can provide Me  security, stability and  the ability  to  be  a freak freely.

I hope  I meet him soon I really do, I got so much pent up sexual frustration in Me. I be online teasing  and exciting everyone else and then I have to masturbate 5 and  6 times a  damn day. It’s so ridiculous. I  thank the  fact that I  at least  get  enough  phone sex  calls to have someone new and  exciting to play with regularly. But sheesh. Can a  chick get a regular dick to suck?

Speaking  of  dick to suck, check out this  video

The  guy in the  video was My last Daddy, I’ve  just been  fucking aimlessly since him really. I  used to love sucking his dick so much. Man I remember one  time he left town and when he  came  back I just dropped  to My knees as  soon  as he  hit the door i must have sucked his dick for a hour that  day mmm.

I just know when we  find  each other  it  will  be a match  made in fantasy  heaven and  we  will be the freak to the others pervert and  fuck minds up every where we  go. i dream of meeting the  man  who will open Me  fully and enable Me to  put down My sword and  shield and  be  truly  submissive and  free. One day….

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