You know I’m trying hard to redirect My daily behavior to being naughty only occasionally but I tell you, I miss the old Me sometimes. I’m a bad girl wrapped in the body of a hooker trying to go straight. I can tell you honestly though, the minute I can find a stable man to fuck on the regular, I’m getting crazy again. The truth is the only reason I’m so chill these days is because I’m single and not fucking any one guy on the regular. I have 3 I rotate, but I still crave a daddy.
Not having a Daddy puts Me in the awkward position of trying to be comfortable with men I know are insignificant to Me. It’s no secret I treat men like toys and ATM’s, it takes a very different type to be seen differently in My world. As much as I bully, and torture men I seek someone strong enough to handle My lil wild ass.
I need a special alpha male with great dick, amazing oral skills, extreme confidence, full of fun, life and a gentleman to the tee and furthermore he has to be able to ADD MORE TO MY LIFE THAN HIS DICK. The guy I call Daddy will be able to meet all of My basic needs so I don’t have to look outside of him for anything. The only time I’m stepping out for extra fun is WITH him because he keeps Me happy AND stable. I miss having that.
What I miss most about having that special Daddy in My life is not just the stability but the guidance and feeling of security. I was able to feel free when I had a Daddy. I always felt I had someone who would look out for Me, whether I was stripping naked in the woods, at a swingers event or one of My porn conventions. I had someone whose opinion I valued as much as My own, someone I trusted to lead and guide Me to higher levels. I NEED someone to push Me to higher levels of eroticism. In every situation I end up in I’m the more experienced, the wildest, the one with all the ideas. It’s boring.
I’ve been on a website lately where a lot of couples post pictures of either themselves or the wives, sometimes seeking a third or more fun. I am so envious, how I wish I had My own Daddy to play with. A Daddy to offer Me up, to watch Me suck off other men for his pleasure. It’s no secret all I really like to watch is gangbang porn, for the last two years one of My lovers has teased about setting up one for Me. I can’t with him, I don’t even trust him like that even though I’m very open sexually to him. I’d need a real Daddy, someone who has loved and nurtured and protected Me, so I know he will even in that situation.
My sex life now leaves Me unfulfilled. I get fucked but not regularly, the guys I’m fucking I can’t say I really like or respect much as people but I’ve been fucking them for years now so it’s kind of like routine. I need excitement, romance, adventure. I want someone who suddenly pulls the car over and fucks Me crazy, or makes Me suck him off in random places. I want a guy who I can be 100% free with.
I can’t wait until I find him though, I just know I will some day. I haven’t given up yet. I just know there is a strong Black man out here who can provide Me security, stability and the ability to be a freak freely.
I hope I meet him soon I really do, I got so much pent up sexual frustration in Me. I be online teasing and exciting everyone else and then I have to masturbate 5 and 6 times a damn day. It’s so ridiculous. I thank the fact that I at least get enough phone sex calls to have someone new and exciting to play with regularly. But sheesh. Can a chick get a regular dick to suck?
Speaking of dick to suck, check out this video
The guy in the video was My last Daddy, I’ve just been fucking aimlessly since him really. I used to love sucking his dick so much. Man I remember one time he left town and when he came back I just dropped to My knees as soon as he hit the door i must have sucked his dick for a hour that day mmm.
I just know when we find each other it will be a match made in fantasy heaven and we will be the freak to the others pervert and fuck minds up every where we go. i dream of meeting the man who will open Me fully and enable Me to put down My sword and shield and be truly submissive and free. One day….
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