Hey My loves, I hope this blog post find you in great spirits. I Myself, am horny as fuck. My sex life is severely fucked right now and I’m almost at My breaking point. I got to this weird place in life a while back where I have to actually like the person to enjoy having sex with them. Maybe after actually falling in love I have feelings or something now. What I DO know, is that I have to be mentally stimulated and and physically turned on by a guy to get off these days.
I truly miss having good, exciting sex. I mean sweat drenching, hair pulling, back scratching, fuck Me in every position and all over the house type sex. I mean I miss having a guy to share fetishes with. More importantly I miss having a man around who’s not afraid to manhandle Me. You can’t get that when you just fucking a guy here and there, there’s no real connection. In order for Me to be free and freaky as I want to be, there has to be a real connection.
As many know, I identify as a switch. While I thoroughly enjoy dominating and degrading white men, I want nothing more than to submit to a strong Black King. It’s My dream, it’s been way to long. I need a man who can control Me, please Me and make Me his personal slut.
I cut off My lovers really. I kept 3 and all of them are unsatisfying. Most days I choose to just masturbate and I barely enjoy that. One has a huge dick and fucks Me good but we have no connection. I don’t talk to him on the phone and when he’s here we smoke, watch tv and fuck. We’ve been doing this for 10 years now. The other, at least we talk when he’s around. There’s some mental stimulation and the sex is good but we have no real connection. I don’t talk to him, we don;t hang out. We’ve been doing this for 6 years. The third, I really like, we have a great relationship and talk like 5 days a week. We go out on dates and all, I’ve been seeing him on and off for 13 years, steadily the last 7 years. The ONLY problem is his dick is too small. The sexual experience is great, but the sex itself is only so-so.
I’m used to great sex. Being able to enjoy My time only with the guy with the smallest dick SUCKS.
You know what’s worse? They’re all pussies lmao. They all know I give a serious blow job, they all eat My pussy and I never suck their dicks. The shit is ridiculous. I’d like to suck their dicks, but the connection just isn’t there that makes Me want to suck it. I love sucking dick, I miss it. I just either have to really like the guy or be dominated and well….it’s not happening.
My sex life sucks. I masturbate too much and lately I’m doing it and wondering why at the same damn time. I want to be fucked, I want to be gagged. I want to be with a man who knows all My kinky fetishes and caters to them.
I don’t even meet people these days though, people are such weirdos. I miss the days before I was so popular and was just a freak. I swear My sex life was so serious, I fucked who I wanted when I wanted. Sometimes two and three guys a day.
Damn I miss My hoe days.